Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Growth



"If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you"---Every Coach since the dawn of time.


For a couple of months, we've been doing entirely new types of run training. There were times that I was getting so frustrated with myself because I couldn't get it.

I kept working on it; until I didn't anymore. I gave up. I couldn't get it. I couldn't figure out how to get it. I couldn't figure out how to get my body to move the way I was supposed to move it. 

Full speed ahead, I ran into a mental block. I started questioning all my training. Maybe I'm not meant to do this. Maybe I should just give up hope. Why do I even bother? Obviously, these training practices are made for other people, not me.

At the same time, my swim coach took a day and told me that we were going to work on my fly. My fly looks like I'm having a seizure. I'm ok with that. I'm a freestyler. Still, I could tell that my Coach had grave concerns about my fly.


We spent an hour, working on fly.

An hour.

At the end of the hour, I don't know if I'd made any progress. In fact, I felt like my stroke had disintegrated a bit. My mind was completely overwhelmed. I CAN'T GET THE MOVEMENT.

My mind shutdown.

I wanted to throw in the towel. I was beyond frustrated. I'd run head first into a brick wall with my running and now swimming.

The next day, I had a couple of workouts and an optional workout. I was contemplating skipping the optional workout.

Mr. Tea saw me and asked what I was doing. I explained that I was thinking about skipping my optional workout.

He said, "You'll do it. That's who you are. If a Liz says to run 30-40 minutes. You'll run 40. You're THAT person. I'm the other person".

Despite making me laugh out loud.

He had a point. That's exactly who I am. I don't give up when I run into obstacles. I always find a way.

Two days later, we had a giant IM set at masters. The entire workout was 4000yds. 

Without thinking, I took off for the first 100 IM. I left without fins (for fly). I left.without.thinking.

I took off from the wall and did fly, not poorly.

Then, I did it again. And again. And again. I wasn't thinking about what I was doing. My mind relaxed, and I swam fly.

Over the weekend, I had a race. The point of the race was a pacing exercise. The race was fine. 

Liz and I talked afterward. She said something along the lines of "You've got to work on this".

I got SO mad. "I'm FUCKING trying. I really am."

I took a step back.


I wasn't mad at Liz. I was frustrated with myself. 

These are my goals. Liz is telling me exactly what I need to hear, not what I want to hear. She is not going to let me off the hook that easily.

Once again, what do I need to do to make this work?

I'm in great running shape. I can run long distances or speed work. I have the fitness I need to do these workouts.

I thought about learning fly.


My inability to do what I needed to do wasn't a result of poor fitness.

It was a result of what was going on in my head.

Where your head leads, your body follows. Your body will do whatever you tell it to do.

I went running today. Instead of trying to figure out how to make my body move. I did one thing. I told it to run the way I need to run. 

Guess what?

It worked. 

I've taken the next step in my development.

1 comment:

LBTEPA said...

GO YOU!!!! WOOT!!!