Sunday, December 25, 2016


Shine by Mondo Cozmo

And, I'm off. My season is starting tomorrow.

Yesterday, we did our Christmas celebration with JMan & Googs & JenNah. How holidays change as your kids go from being kids to being adults.

They completely surprised me with running gear. Not just any running gear. Running gear that I needed so badly for the winter. I was waiting for the after Christmas sales to purchase. 

During dinner, JMan pulled out a beer stein from the cabinet.. He said, "This is the coolest mug I've ever seen. Where did you get it?" He looked at the stein and read it, "AGE GROUP CHAMPION. OF COURSE. Because my mom is an AGE GROUP CHAMPION".

I think it's a very good thing that they grew up watching me trying to meet my grandiose goals. They've seen me struggling. They've seen me get back up and go again the next day. They've seen my wins. I can see them take that exact attitude to things that they do. When they struggle, they get back up and pick up where they left off, the next day.

I guess that's why I woke up this morning thinking about my goals. I usually get up on Christmas Day and run. But, today is my last day off for the foreseeable future. I stayed in bed, instead.

Many times over the years, I've said, "Train to your weakness. Race to your strengths".

I really believed that, but I didn't do it. Year after year, race after race, I've had to listen the comments, "If you could just get your run together, you'd be an awesome triathlete".

The weird part was that I already thought I was a pretty awesome triathlete. 

Still, I think, those words echoed in my head for too long. I would go into a race, focused on one thing and one thing only: RUNNING.

I would swim. I would bike. The event that was on my mind was the run.

That process was more along the lines of  "Train to your weakness. Race to your weakness".

This year, my goal is to change that. 

Two years ago, I raced Age Group Nationals for the first time. The swim start was very crowded. The women I raced with were talking about splitting ourselves up. Let the really fast swimmers start. (These were the 21:00-23:00 1500m swimmers). (We're talking about split seconds here. The wall was very crowded.It was a logical thing to do. We actually had more room in Omaha than we did in Milwaukee). At the time, I said that I wouldn't be in the first tier of swimmers, but I would definitely be the lead group of the 2nd tier. 

At the time, I was right. In two years, my swimming has improved at a crazy rate. I don't want to set stupid expectations of anyone who is trying to improve your swim. If you are swimming on your own, your swim isn't going to improve. Period. If you are happy where you are, that's totally cool.

You all know that I swim masters 3-4 times per week. I've taken private lessons. (This week, I am having a video analysis again). My masters coaches know that I want feedback. They know I need to be pushed, and they will, sometimes, set a pace that I doubt I can hit. I always prefer to be the slowest swimmer in a lane. I'd rather get lapped than wait for slower swimmers. When I swim, sometimes I stop and watch the truly amazing swimmers swim. I watch their form. I am in awe at how far their pull takes them.

This year at AG Nationals, my goal is to take off with the fastest and stay with them. This will require a lot of practice, but I have QUITE the race schedule to figure it out. I've talked to my swim coaches about my pacing for the 1500m swim. Now, it's up to me to really put in the work. In theory, I know the 1500m feels easy to start, but to hold that pace for the entirety, it requires more effort as the race goes on. (The 1500m swim is actually my best distance, so this will be a fun year for swimming).

That's my goal for the swim this year: Get my pacing down and hang with the fastest of the women in my age group.

The bike is going to be interesting. It's going to be a blast. It's going to be the biggest challenge I've had, ever. Again, the race that I'm focused on is Nationals. No race is the same. Terrain & weather can change from year to year from race to race. Once again, my goal has nothing to do with finish times. I have an aggressive, aerodynamic set up on my bike. What this means is that my power output during a race is often much lower and my speed much faster than it is when I'm on my trainer. I've learned that my specific power output on race day isn't as important (as it is for an IM and 70.3). BUT.....I want to improve. As long as my threshold keeps improving, I will be faster on my bike. As long as my legs are burning, I'm in the right space.

Before I even get to Nationals, I've chosen races with particularly difficult bike routes: steep hills. My goal for the bike is to get strong, strong on the hills. The Nationals bike course has a steepish hill that we climb twice. I want to fly up that hill. In the races leading up to it, I'm going to work on my gearing and gut it out on the climbs. I'm already strong on hills, but I want to be better. (Descents are just as important. There's no rest for the weary).

Last year at Nationals, I passed 12 women on the bike. I wasn't passed once, not even by younger athletes. This year, I don't want to be that far behind when I come out of the water. I intend to move up when I'm on the bike.

My goal for the run is to be the best that I can be. Typically, the 10k is my worst distance. That's because I NEVER pace it correctly. This off season, Liz and I put work in on "pacing". I'm starting to get it. 

The advantage, as I see it, is the run course being changed this year to a two loop run. I always prefer multiple loops over one big loop when racing. For me, it's a mental countdown 1.55 miles at a time. 

Guess what? I'm going to be passed on the run. #sorry #notsorry 

My goal isn't to hold my position as I come off the bike. My goal is to bring my best run to that race. You can bet that I'm going to be working on my pacing over and over and over again, until Nationals.

In order to make Team USA, I have to come in better than 25th with an estimated time of 2:35 and better. Last year, I was 26th. Ten of the top 25 women all age up with me this year. The time of 2:35 is a stretch for me. 

I should explain the importance of the finish time.....or lack of importance. In order to qualify for Team USA, I need to come in 20th or better before the Age up rule is applied. Since 10 women are aging up with me, next year, I have to look at their finish times to get an idea of what I need to train to in order to get close to 25th. 

A time of 2:35 is a stretch for me. But that's what I'm training to. Team USA doesn't care about finish times. They care about placing. If faster or slower women show up to race....I don't control that. I control my effort and attitude only. I own that part of my race. 

Back in 2015, I didn't think I'd make Nationals again. I raced Nationals with the attitude that "I was just happy to be there". This year, I'm not just happy to be there. I'm going there to accomplish something.

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Dec 3rd: Getting your shit together day

On Dec 3rd, I was scrambling around the house like someone set me on fire.

Mr. Tea finally asked, "WHAT are you doing"?

I replied, "Today is the day I'm getting my shit together".

Mr. Tea: "Today? Dec 3rd? Is there anything significant about Dec 3rd"?

I said, "There's no real reason. I decided yesterday. Today is the day".

Mr. Tea: It's not Jan 1st. I like it. I want to do "Getting my shit together day, too".

There you go.

Forget resolutions.

Pick a random day.

And get your shit together. Whatever that means for you.

Saturday, December 10, 2016

Stay the course

If I wrote this post a week ago, it would have gone like this.

I hate off season.

I hate running.

I hate swimming.

I hate everything.

I hate the cold.

I want to crawl under my covers and stay there until June.

Instead, I waited a week.

Mr. Tea was sick in Oct. My entire masters team was sick in Oct. I got sick in Oct. This wasn't any normal cold. It was the worst cold I've ever had in my life. I could barely walk from the couch to the kitchen. It lasted a full 3 weeks.

You might also remember we had several people we know pass away.

The week I felt better, I sprained my ankle when I stepped into a snow drift. Fortunately, it wasn't a bad sprain. It was minor all things considered. I started rehabbing immediately.

But THAT day is the day I caught my next cold. WTF?!?! The last time I was sick was 2014, and I get sick twice in two months, not to mention my ankle sprain.

Oh but it gets better. As I was dealing with that I had the worst hormonal issues I've ever had....because 49......I sat in the kitchen one morning in tears as I watched the hot flash and ensuing rash cover my body. It was the most painful experience I've ever been through. I went into the bathroom and stared at this body that I no longer knew. My body was betraying me. This phase of hot flashes lasted a week. Each *flash* lasted 45 minutes and left me completely depleted of energy. It would take me 2-3 hours to recover. That week, I lowered my intensity and did one workout a day until I got through it.

Then our treadmill died. Any off the bike runs meant I had to put on layers to run outside. Running in the cold when I was already sweaty was not at all fun, easy or warm.

And until you have attempted to take off a completely drenched running bra only to put a dry one on a sweaty don't know what it really means to be a contortionist.

During this time, it is our busy season at work. We attempted to hire two people. Neither one worked out.

Then, the staff stepped up (again).

Then, Mike hit his 3 month recovery mark. The 3 month mark is a really big deal. They are the hardest months of recovery. We started noticing that he hadn't been in pain. He was hardly ever coughing. He was walking regularly. (Although, he can't walk outside in seriously cold weather).

My hormones mellowed the fuck out. I doubt they'll ever go back to the nice predictability I had before. At least, for now.....I have re-set my expectations. I'm doing more from a training and nutritional perspective to help me with those times.

If you didn't know this, women and men need to train and fuel differently. Peri-menopausal women need to fuel differently than women under 45 (possibly 40 depending on the woman). AND menopausal women need to fuel differently than all other women.

Did I mention, we need different fueling for different times of our cycle?

In other words, just when we're feeling like we have a handle on things Mother fucking nature throws a curve ball at us.

Most importantly, no woman is the same as another. Each experience is our own unique experience. I'm not like your wife or girlfriend or you. You, your wife or girlfriend are not going through the same thing I am.

Please don't group us together. There are few things that will piss off a perimenopausal woman more than a guy saying, "Oh yeah. You're just like my wife".

I will rip off your fucking face if you ever say that to me. (Yes. I have had men say that to me. Although they lived to tell about it.....they aren't the same person anymore).

But, I digress.

Things improved.

Mike is getting better. We decided to get ourselves a new treadmill as a Christmas present. It arrived on Friday, and I get to use it for the first time today.

In the past 3 days, I feel like my 2nd cold might actually be over.

My ankle is all healed up.

I went to masters 2 days this week, since I hadn't been in a couple of weeks. Nothing will make you feel more loved than a bunch of swimmers running up to you asking, "Where have you been? We missed you"!

I've been figuring out my nutrition and finding new things that work. Two months ago, my old fueling stopped working, meaning that it was making me sick. I couldn't even put it in my mouth with gagging.....which is another very normal thing for women my age.

I'll continue to experiment.

In all that, I'm still on my quest of 235 miles. Back in January, I set a swim goal of 235 miles for the year. (Keep in mind, I only do sprints and oly distance). With my half marathon, surgery, and being ridiculously sick for two months, I didn't think I would hit my goal.

Last week, I realized that I was 20 miles from my goal. I could still meet my goal. I hammered off an email to Liz saying, "You know I don't stray from my plan.....yadda yadda.....but this was my goal....yadda yadda....could we bump up my swim volume?"

She said, "You know what, Tea? Swim as much as you want (up to 5 days a week), until 1/1/2017. Do what you want when YOU have time to do it".

This past week, I swam +5 miles. I now have only ~13 miles left to hit my goal.

Next Saturday, I am running a 10k. It will be stupid cold and probably below 0 for the race.

This will be my first stand alone 10k in YEARS. Originally, I thought it would be a PR attempt. Now, I don't care about that.

The 10K race, my swim goal....they are about what happens when I stay the course; go with life's ups and downs. It's ok to get mad or frustrated but STAY THE COURSE.

Everything is temporary.

Saturday, December 3, 2016

Find your anchor

I follow Dwayne Johnson on Instagram. I've always liked him. I gravitate toward people who take what they do seriously, but they don't take themselves seriously.

In one of his recent posts, he said, "find your anchor".

I never thought about that before.

What does "find your anchor" mean? To me, it's the people and places and things that keep me balanced.

For me, "find your anchor" is much deeper than a support network which is important but probably includes a dietitian, massage therapist, people you train with (like masters or some running groups)...a group that you probably don't necessarily share you deepest thoughts with.

It's who or what keep me balance; keep me rooted. It's where I go to be who I am at my core. 

When it comes to people, these are the people who like me for who I am, not for who I know or how much money I have, not because of what I've done. These are the people who accept my flawesome.....all my flaws and all my awesome.

Mr. Tea and Coach Liz are my anchors. They are probably the only two people who can give me unsolicited feedback that I will heed....or at least take note of until I'm ready to hear it.

I have close friends that....geez....I don't even know how to describe them. They're my anchors.

Since my tri season ended, I've had a few weeks (here and there) where I was off from training. I would simply go in to TP and tell Liz that I want this week or that week off.

That's when I realized that riding my bike is my anchor. I rode my bike every day when I had those weeks off. When Mr. Tea was at his worst and I had to be at his beck and call, you'd find me in the basement riding my bike. Now, I'm on a run focus. I miss my bike, horribly. I'm still riding 3 days per week, but I miss my bike on the other 4 days.

That simple, little phrase, "find your anchor" was a reminder that I have a place or people that allow me to drop the walls and just be me.

Sunday, November 27, 2016

Year 4

A couple of months back, I was having a conversation with my friend Bobo.

I can't remember how we got started on the topic of triathlon.
I told him a story. I gave him the shorter version. He got the short version because he knew about all the stuff from the past anyway.

You lucky blog readers get the longer version.

Several years back, I used to have a friend. I'm specifically talking about one person. To keep it easy and gender neutral, let's call that person Chris.

Chris had a mean streak. The mean streak wasn't directed at me. From experience, I know that mean people tend to be the unhappiest. Chris was a very unhappy person.

As I started to improve in triathlon, I realized that Chris started taking little digs at me (personally), and started justifying my finish times.

At first, I could laugh off everything. That's what I do. I laugh at myself all the time.

After awhile, the comments became more vicious.

I realized that everyone loves a back of the packer, until that back of the packer isn't, anymore.

All of a sudden, the mean streaks were aimed right at me.

It's not a stretch for you to figure out Chris is no longer a friend.

When you have someone who is a good friend, and that person turns against you, their words tend to stick with you a little more.

It's in my DNA to take those words and use them as motivation to go for the biggest successes I could ever dream.

I did the same thing as we were building our company. "That idea will never work". "You're crazy". "You don't know anything about running a company".

Over the years, I often wondered if this negative motivation is a good thing or a bad thing.

In triathlon (specifically), there is always talk about "your why". Why are you doing this sport? The why is important because it will be called into question at your darkest times.

I have had my own dark times.

My truly deep motivation didn't have anything to do with Chris or Chris' words. My own deep motivation comes from this crazy drive of mine. It doesn't matter if we are talking about work or play, I am one of the most dedicated & determined people you will ever meet.

In my conversation with Bobo, I told him that when I step up on that podium, I stomp on it. Even though Chris and I haven't talked or seen each other in years, I imagine Chris looking up my finish time or seeing me on that podium....

After our conversation, I thought about what I had said. I started to wonder, "why would I share such an important moment with my hater when I have an incredible support network in my life"?

My friends and support network deserve all the energy and recognition for what I've done because I can't do any of this without them. 

 In January, I start my 4th year with Liz. Yesterday, I finally had the opportunity to talk with her about my race schedule for 2017. We also talked about our goals for the year. But, I missed a goal.

In 2017, every time I finish a race; every time I have an incredible success, I won't be spending any more energy on Chris.

Every finish will be dedicated to the friends and support network that get me there.

The year 2017 will truly be dedicated to those of you who text me before races; to those you who cheer me on Strava and send me a quick "Ride on" in Zwift. It will be dedicated to all those times when I'm tired, and you say "You got this, Tea. You got this". It's dedicated to those of you who step up to the start line with me (whether in real life or virtually).

You are the people who have been through everything with me. You have supported me through the hard times; you've made me laugh when I'm struggling. You are the ones I will be celebrating.

Friday, November 25, 2016

One more grammar rant

I'm sure you all remember my rant about the overuse of "!!!!". In fact, even a single "!" is not used correctly.

Before that, I ranted (a few years ago), about the "I haz cheezburger" crap that was floating around.

Now, I present you with the "elimination of pronouns".

"Watching the Macy's parade on tv".

"Thankful for all my friends and family this holiday season".

I get it. The whole hashtag phenomenon left us thinking we no longer need to explicitly state, "I'm watching the Macy's parade". Or, "I'm thankful for all my friends and family this holiday season".

Pronouns are implied. 

Social media = the dumbing down of, well, pretty much everything.

Don't be a dumb ass, use proper grammar.

Saturday, November 19, 2016

The one that got away

In 2017, I'm moving up in distance.

I'm excited, but I'm also nervous. We all have that one race.

The one that got away.

It can leave us with the feeling of needing to go back. For me, it's not about proving anything to anyone. It's not even about proving anything to myself.

It's about wanting to do what I didn't do before. I really hope you get what I'm saying because I'm not really explaining it well.

I guess it's that I feel like I left something there, and I want to go back and do what I didn't do before.

It's something that I am fully capable of doing but didn't do last time.

I decided to go back to the race to do what I know I can do.

I'm nervous because, of all my goals, this race is the biggest goal I have. It's time for me to meet it straight on.

My goal isn't about a podium. It isn't about TeamUSA. It's a very personal goal.

When I told Liz, she said, "You know what's going to be required. This is going to be really painful".

I know it is. I don't care. I told her, "I want to do this for me. I have been waiting for this for a long time".

If you know me, I don't rush anything. I don't do anything before I'm ready to face it head on.

When I finished my 2016 season, I knew the time was right. Each year, I learn a bit more about myself, and I've learned that I can push harder.

I guess, I see 2017 as the real test. Did I really learn as much as I think?

You see. The goal for 2017 (even though YOU might see it is as small and insignificant) will be the biggest confidence boost that I've ever had.  That's the best part of triathlon: setting these crazy goals and reaching them. No matter what you do in life, THAT is the greatest feeling. A year from now, I hope to look back and say, "Wow. I did it. I actually did it".

This mystery goal: I see it as an important step to my other goals. I see it as the mental challenge.

Will I be able to hold on when I need to? Will I be able to do the effort that I need to?

There is so much wrapped up in this one little goal.

Now that I've rambled on senselessly for 15 minutes, how do we accomplish this giant mystery goal?

Liz and I are still working through the details of my actual race schedule, but we are full on in off season training. (Hey! No more reboots).

What do you do right in the middle of a run focus? A BIKE TEST, of course. The bike test is the week after Thanksgiving. We have a few running races planned. We're also continuing with the weird sh*t. She sent me the newest strength training routine, which looks awesome.

Then, we go right into training for my A race in April.

I might have forgotten to mention this. Mr. Tea, JMan, Googs & Googs' GF (JEN-NAH) all plan on going to the race to cheer me on.

Thursday, November 10, 2016


As I was running the other day, I thought of this song.

We are now 2 months since Mr. Tea went to the emergency room. We knew there would be many ups and downs during his recovery.  Since then, his medicines have changed multiple times. He has been to the doctor for a variety of other tests. He has one more test to go through, but his system needs to be as "clean" as possible. That test will be in about two weeks. These tests have been for other health issues, unrelated to the pulmonary embolism. I haven't felt like talking about them all. (Weakened right ventricle, weakened arterial valve, liver problems---which is the next test).

The good news is that he is on the mend for the pulmonary embolism. For the other issues, he is on a medication plan. He is feeling better. He has also lost 60lbs so far.

One of our challenges is nutrition. We have completely different nutrition plans. We are kind of at the point where we need to make completely separate meals. They can be the same general meal, but they are prepared differently or with different ingredients. If I weren't an endurance athlete, I'd follow his plan. I am an endurance athlete. I need to fuel for different training efforts & recovery.

That's that.

In my last post, I mentioned that I'm doing a run focus this off season.

If I remember correctly, I've only done a run focus one other time. 

It was nothing like what I'm doing now. I thought Liz would have me running a lot, no a TON, with sprints and repeats, etc.

NOPE. We are doing weird stuff. Training that I have never in my life done. In addition to this, she is augmenting this weird run focus with equally weird bike stuff.

And, I'm strength training a lot.

When I started this run focus, I was getting frustrated. I couldn't do it. In my head, I couldn't get it. It wasn't making sense.

Every day, I would go out there and go through the motions. I figured out at some point, it would all click.

Then, I was at Masters one day. Coach Andrew had given me a goal for an interval set. I was missing the goal. As I was swimming, I thought to myself, "what do I have to do to make this work?"

I figured it out and nailed the rest of the intervals.

When I was resting, Andrew came over and asked me how I did. I explained what happened.

He said, "Tea. That's why you are so fun to coach. When faced with a challenge, you ask yourself, 'what do I need to do'. You don't give up".

So, I go back to running; running these bizarre workouts. Yesterday, I had 10 sets of intervals. The first two didn't go really well. I was close, but I still missed them. I took the recovery period, and I thought, "What do I have to do to make this work"?

All of a sudden, it clicked. It made sense. I tried multiple things and then BOOM. It all came together.

During the cooldown, I realized that the combination of run focus, weird bike workouts, and strength training was starting to come together. For the first time, I understood the connection.

I, also, realized that I'm probably going to be sore for my entire off season.

When I did the bike focus earlier this year, I could immediately see the results in power output & watts to kg. I could see the improvements happening.

With the run, we are handling it completely differently. I'm doing things I've never done before. I can't see results on a weekly or monthly basis.

I don't know if what we are doing is working.

What I do know is that Liz has taken my racing to levels that I'd never experienced before.

I trust her system. I do the workouts.

I believe in her. 


Saturday, November 5, 2016


Off season started.

Bad shit happened.

Off season started again.

More bad shit happened.

I'm now on my 3rd attempt at starting my off season.

If you're taking notes:

Mike got sick (on top of the whole pulmonary embolism thing).

I got sick.

Then, Mike got sick again.

I'm pretty sure that Mike's 2nd issue was a key player in me having a cold for 3 weeks.

Then, 3 people we knew died in one week. (It was this past week).



Needless to say, I took some time off from training.

There's your update.

This week, I had a mostly successful week of training.

Coach Liz and I talked this week. (When I say "talk", I mean email because I'm an introvert. Introverts hate the phone. But if you heard the conversations in my head, you'd totally understand).

She sent me an email asking how I'd like to handle the off season. We'd had a conversation before, but then life happened. Honestly, I couldn't even remember what we decided in our previous conversation.

With the hands on coaching that I get at masters, it doesn't make sense for me to do a swim focus. Who shaves :30 off their 100 time? Who does that? THIS GAL.

We did a bike focus at the beginning of this year with great results.

It's time for a run focus. I, also, told her that I'd like to strength train more. (Obviously with the race schedule I had, I wasn't doing strength work).

BOOM! My off season is set: run focus and lot's of strength training. I love strength training. I'll be doing a number of 5ks and 10ks.

We'll see how well I remember how to run a 10k.

The next thing we did was talk about my goals.

I want to stress something. There are time goals that I'd like to hit. There are certain finish times that I need in order to reach some goals.

We train to those goals.

BUT when I am racing, I don't think about those time goals. I am always 100% focused on effort & attitude.

No matter how well trained I am, I don't expect a race to be a PR or a podium or to even hit a certain pace or time. There are too many variables.

Compare two races that I did this year:

AG Nationals: I PR'd all over the place. This race is set up for my strengths. I'm great on the bike on hills. That course was perfect for me. The run was awesome. It was a flat, out/back.

Las Vegas: I had an outstanding swim. I always swim well in rougher conditions. The bike had more and larger hills than Omaha and winds. I had an outstanding bike, but it was far from a PR. The run was a technical run uphill out and downhill on the return on mostly loose rock. It was also 98 degrees on the run. That was not a PR run, but I ran as hard as I could given the conditions.

How can you be disappointed with that?

I was equally happy with both. In fact, I might have enjoyed Las Vegas even more because I tend to gravitate towards races that offer more challenges; the races that require more mental toughness than others.

Back to the run focus. There are a number of races here throughout the winter. I love doing them. Last year, I missed the races because I was training for a half marathon. I'm excited to do them again. They are just so much fun.

My next race is the Annual Turkey Trot. Don't hold your breath for a PR with me coming off a cold and taking a couple of weeks off for training. DO expect another crazy fun, family race because JMan and Googs will be running with me once again.

Friday, October 28, 2016

For love of the game

Coach Liz is as much a master of the mental aspects of training and racing as she is the physical part. She re-posted this slide the other day. It's from a psychologist. Unfortunately, I didn't catch the doctor's name, and I don't make it a point to be on Twitter. If you want to get more of this, follow Liz on Twitter.

My normal process for training is:
1.) I log into TrainingPeaks and see what my weekly volume looks like. I do this, so I can plan my days. I know if I need to get up early to ride or run. I know if I have to work around appointments. But, I also know if I need to plan my nutrition differently for that day.

2.) I know this is old school, but I print off my workouts. I print them off to enter them into garmin connect. I've tried to go from screen to screen, and printing them is just plain easier.

Once I do that, I upload my workouts into my Garmin. I know my schedule. I don't log into TP again. (Once my workouts are done, they upload automatically to TP. I enter my notes at that point, but there's no reason for my to look at my workouts).

Imagine my surprise, when for absolutely no reason.....I log into TrainingPeaks and see that my workouts had all been deleted.

These were workouts that I had the printed the pages.  TrainingPeaks is set up where it's not easy to delete a workout. It's definitely not easy to accidentally delete a workout, let alone an entire week.

I stared at the screen. I was all packed up to go swim and do my strength workout. I emailed Liz.

Her response was "You're taking time off".

Ok. I didn't really feel like responding. Here's what I know about Liz (from working with her for almost 3 years), she knows things. I know it's a combination of looking at data and being perceptive about people.

So, I didn't bother asking her why. I've had a cold (still do). It's not a bad one, and not in my lungs. I can only assume that she decided my body has had enough and needs time off; enough stress, enough illness, enough.

She told me to get in touch with her on the 26th to talk about how I was feeling. I decided against it. She has training in my plan starting on the 31st. I thought, "I'll take the week off. Maybe I'll even take more time off. I'll see where I am on the 30th".

It's my birthday week. It wasn't super fun being sick, but out of nowhere my schedule completely opened up.

I'm going to keep being off and doing WHATever. I'll see you on Strava when I feel like training again.

Interesting facts about my birthday:

1.) I share my birthday with Jon Cleese. Since I'm a huge Monty Python fan, this is the coolest thing in the entire world. I genuinely get sad when people miss my Monty Python references.

2.) I'm a baseball fan. My favorite movies are usually baseball movies; in particular, this one. (Little known Tea fact, when I was younger, I collected baseball cards).  In 2004, I had left my job in April. I was currently unemployed (other than getting the business started). In my previous job, I traveled extensively. I had so many miles built up that me and the boys went on vacation for free. On October 27th, 2004, the Red Sox won the World Series. If you're not a baseball fan, that's no big deal. BUT, if you are, you probably remember where you were and what you were doing that day. Me and the boys were in our room, sitting on the bed, watching the game. I remember thinking, "Well done, Sox. Well done."

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Special recognition

This weekend is the Marine Corp Marathon.

In the US, the MCM is a huge race. Every year, I have a number of friends who do the race.


I also have friends who are in the military, stationed around the world. They run the "shadow" race.

This year, I have two friends who will be running the shadow MCM in Kabul. The race is 17 laps around the embassy, 6500 feet of elevation gain and up and down a 2 story parking garage......for every lap.

The next time you do a race and think you can't go on, think of those women and men running in Kabul.

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Celebrating moi

I can't tell you how many times I have sat down to write, start a post and then leave it unfinished.

I'm caught in a cycle of the sucks. I can't seem to get out of it.

I write, and I think, "Oh, does this sound too much like POOR ME?" I don't mean it to sound like that. I'm tired of talking about all this crap. I can only imagine you're tired of hearing about it. At the same time, it's real crap that's going on.

What do I do?

I'll tell you.

I sat down and ate these...

And SOMEtimes, chocolate really does make everything better. FREE chocolate makes everything even better.

If you have kids, you might be able to relate to this story.  When our sons were growing up, their Fall Break from school always fell during my birthday week.

It was THE most fun week. We would buy Halloween costumes and candy. We would gather up ALL the free birthday foods coupons. Every day, we would get some new free food. One day, we'd get a cupcake; one day a free lunch; and on and on. (We'd even go the day after Halloween to load up of clearance priced candy).

They enjoyed it so much. How often do you go out and eat delicious and bad for you, food for an entire week?

It became a tradition that we would celebrate my birthday for a week. Now, they thought I just wanted to celebrate my birthday all week. The fact is that watching them do all this stuff was more fun than anything I could have asked for.

When they moved out, I realized how much I was doing because they enjoyed it so much. All of a sudden, going out to get all that free stuff.....just for me....had sort of lost its appeal.

Then, last week happened. Mike was already sick.


On top of having pulmonary embolism....if he has several blood clots is it plural?


THEN, I got sick.

THEN, he got worse.

And, I'm back to administering medicines again.

It's the cycle of the suck. I'm telling you. I can't seem to get out of it.

I'm sure when I told Liz, she was like, "Oh f*ck, Tea".

So, last week happened.

We had a birthday dinner planned, but because Mike's new issue is highly contagious, we had to cancel. I'm basically wearing rubber gloves (don't get any ideas) and washing my hands so much, I feel like I've torn off a layer of skin.

It's all ok, though because I decided that no matter what shitstorm is coming our way, I'm going to enjoy my birthday week as much as possible.

I went out an picked up my free cake.

I ate my free box of truffles

Tonight, I'm getting my free pizza.

On my birthday (Thursday), I'm getting my free pastry.

I don't have a lot of time where I can just be "me"; this week is definitely the week that I am celebrating ME. I'm going celebrate the fact that I'm stronger than I thought I was (just 6 months ago)...with a strength that goes far beyond anything triathlon can throw at me. I'm going to celebrate the fact that being sick and administering medicines is a lot more fun than being dead. I'm celebrating my workouts where Liz told me "just go ride. just run. do whatever you want to do today".

We might not have even been through the worst of it yet, but this will all pass. As Mr. Tea said yesterday, "Just imagine in a year from now when we can look back on this and say 'remember that shit?"

Yes. I can picture that time.

Until then, I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing. I'll run 49 minutes on my birthday, for every year I've been around. I'll eat my pastry and drink my coffee and take those few minutes of the day to enjoy the quiet and think about what I'll be doing a year from now.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Changes that have helped me

I've been swimming at the same pool for two years. When I first started, I was talking to a woman who was swimming. She was a triathlete, training for IMAZ. (This was October, so her race was coming up).

The reason I even noticed her that day is because she wears this long sleeved shirt when she swims. For 2 years, I have been watching her swim. She swims several days a week and always swims while masters is going on.

The reason I bring her up is because in two years, I have never seen her do anything more than swim back and forth, lap after lap, no change in pace. I haven't seen her swim make any noticeable improvements in speed.

One day this week, I had a solo swim. I saw the woman with the long sleeved shirt again. I started thinking about the things that I have done to improve my swim. Swimming is tough because it's tough to learn how to improve by reading articles (for me).

Big pull? That didn't mean anything to me. I thought I was pulling big.
Overgliding? Gliding? We're supposed to glide, so why is it bad?
Kicking? Who needs it as a triathlete? We're saving our legs.

The list goes on an on.

I thought I'd write about some of the things I have done to improve my an athlete's language, not a coach's language or as someone who has a long history of swimming.

These are issues that helped me.

1.) Regular lessons/masters. Ask for help. Coaches can't read your mind. You have to take an active part in your development. If you want help, you have to ask for it.

2.) Remove the word "gliding" and "overgliding" from your vocabulary. When your arm is out of the water for recovery and ready to start the pull, as soon as your arm is fully extended in the water, start your pull. The glide is result of your pull. Think of it this way, when you run and your foot hits the ground, your other leg isn't stopped at the top, right? If you did that, you'd stop running. The same thing applies to swimming. AS SOON AS YOUR arm is extended, START YOUR PULL. Don't pause. Don't stop.

3.) Stand up. Put your arms straight above your head, completely stretched out, stretch as far as you can go.....That's called your "reach". You need to do that for every single stroke. (That's why body rotation is so important. You reach further when you have rotated to your side. But, don't worry so much about body rotation. It tends to happen naturally once you get the other pieces.)

Next, stay standing. Bring your arms down to a goal post position. Now back up to your reach. Now back down to goal post position. THAT'S WRONG BUT MANY PEOPLE SWIM THAT WAY. Instead of pulling, they bring their arms into a goal post position. I used to swim that way, so it's really easy for me to see in other people.

Try this: Back into your reach position, both arms stretched as far up as you can.  Pretend you are a cheerleader. Leave one arm up, move the other down, so it's 90 degrees from the other arm. (If you turn sideways, it'll look like the letter L).

For all intents and purposes, that's what your pull is supposed to look like. Not a goal post. When you complete the pull, you can brush your thigh. When you do that, your body will rotate toward that side.

When you complete the pull, you can brush your thigh. When you are in the "L" position, think about how deep in the water your arm is. When your arm is deep, you are moving against more water resistance, which means your pull is pulling you further. (This is called "Force"). The L is simply to make a point, your arm will bend a bit as you dig deep.

One quick point. You might hear people talking about the HIGH ELBOW. Don't worry about the "high elbow". That's one of those things that really messed me up. I couldn't get the "high elbow" yet "deep pull". In my head, those were contradictions. Work on pulling deep or the L. (Again, your arm will have a natural bend. It won't exactly be straight like an L).

Have you ever been on a beach? You make a sand castle and all that sand on top is easy to move. The deeper you dig, the harder the sand is to move. It's the same thing with swimming. It will feel harder, but you will be moving faster and further with every pull.

When you put steps 2 and 3 together, one hand as soon as it hits the water, starts the pull. While on the other side, the arm is brushing the leg and coming out of the water. Sounds complicated, so for me, I had to think about ONE thing at a time.

4.) Kicking. If you have access to a deep pool, go into the deep end where you can't touch the ground. Stay vertical. Put your arms straight up and kick. The goal is to keep your head out of the water.
If you cannot keep your head out of the water, it's time to work on your kick.

Here's what I learned: if you are pedaling like a bike, you'll sink. Your kick is coming from your knee down.

Your kick needs to come from your core. When coach used to tell me this, it didn't make sense. So, think of your kick as a "full leg" kick. Your kick actually starts from your hips, quads and hamstrings. They need to move! When you do that, you engage your core....automatically. When you think about it, what is the strongest part of your legs? The tiny muscles in your shins and calves? Or the big muscles in your butt, quads and hamstrings?

Take advantage of those big powerful muscles.

5.) The biggest change that I had in my kick was when my coach had me switch to a 6 beat kick. Most triathletes don't kick or kick with a slow 4 beat kick.

This next part is something for you to think about. The kick is a numbers game. Don't think about it when you're swimming. Just think about it logically.
The 4 beat kick sets your body into poor movement. It's 2 kicks per leg per side. A 6 beat kick is 3 beats per leg per side. This is important because with a 2 beat (or kick) per side, you are finishing your kick with the leg on the same side as your pull and your body rotation. Now, this isn't something me or any other swimmer really thinks about. It's simply an "odds" and "evens" game.

On the 6 beat kick, you finish your kick with the opposite leg.

Again, an easy way to visualize this. Put yourself into a crawling position. (Get on your hands and knees). When you move forward, you move your left leg with your right arm. You can't crawl if you move your left leg at the same time as your left arm.

That's the 6 beat kicking concept. When you do 3 beats (an odd number), you are finishing your kick on the opposite side of your pull which is again creating power (or force) and pushes you through the water.

The biggest changes I made:
a.) full leg kick
b.) 6 beat kick

I can tell you that switching to a 6 beat kick was not easy. It's very tiring because it feels (initially) like you are over kicking. Once you get it, it feels much more natural and as though your kick is now a productive part of your freestyle.

One more thing that will help. These fins were recommended to me by my coach.

If you are using long fins, you are learning a very slow kick. (Sure, you move really fast, but it's because of your fins, not because you have a strong kick. Trust me. I swam with long fins for a long time). The reason these fins are so great is because of the notch in the top. In order to really move in these fins, you need to use a fast (6 beat) and powerful (full leg) kick. These fins really make your legs strong.

6.) Pace. Like the woman at the beginning of this post, are you swimming all workouts and all intervals at the same pace?

Do you run 400 meters at the same pace you run a 10K? I hope not. The same rule goes for swimming.

When you swim a fast 50, it should leave you winded. If your 50 pace is very close to your 100 pace, you're either not going fast enough on your 50's or not going fast enough on your 100's. Likewise, your 100 pace should be considerably faster than your 1000m pace.

When you use toys: fins, pull buoy, paddles, even your easy pace, with toys, should be considerably faster than your pace without toys. (If it's not, you might have found a weakness in your stroke).

Just like running or riding, you have to teach your body to move fast if you want to get faster. If you swim at the same speed all the time, you are only learning how one pace feels.

Your swimming days should consist of speed days (USRPT), mid-distance, long days, hypoxic,  and (yes) even stroke days (to stregthen to entire body and your freestyle).

7.) A word about Flip turns. No one fucking cares. Do it or don't. It doesn't matter. An open turn is a completely legal turn in the swimming world. Don't let any arrogant ego driven person tell you that you need to flip turn.

I have always done flip turns. (I taught myself from youtube videos. Then, my coach at masters taught me how to clean it up). I do them because I want to.

Other than coming off the wall faster, I don't really see any benefit that you get from flip turning. Some people claim that it gives you hypoxic training, but you can do hypoxic workouts without flip turning.

Do what you want. I don't care if people flip turn or not when I swim with them.

That's it. Maybe this helps you. Maybe not. For me, swimming was the hardest of the three to learn because it is definitely more of a finesse sport. Don't get me wrong. You have to be strong to swim, but there are more nuances in swimming than in running and cycling, in my opinion.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

2nd Annual Birthday 5K

Having adult kids means finding new and fun ways to celebrate birthdays & holidays.

Last year, I had the most brilliant idea to tell JMan & Googs that I wanted them to run a 5k with me for my birthday. Afterwards, we'd get breakfast.

Voila! A tradition is born.

Funny story.....

Not only did I come in 1st F40-49 with my very FIRST, 1st place in a running race.

But, Jman & Googs tied for 2nd in the M20-29.

I know. I know. It's hard to believe they're in their 20's now.

Before breakfast group selfie.

Because Mr. Tea is home sick, and there's not much more fun that recovering from blood clots in the lungs than being sick on top of's a picture of me and Mr. Tea.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Off season

The off season is here: the time when triathletes let out a collective sigh of relief.

How about a Mr. Tea update?
After a few weeks of many ups and downs, this week is the best week he has had. He is still restricted to 20 minutes of walking a day. His pain is noticeably less. That's been the hardest part. You can never know what it's like to feel completely helpless until you have to watch someone suffer. This week has been better, though, much better. He was able to sleep through the night for the first time, last night.

My off season just started. I looked over my season, (races, training, nutrition). I considered my goals for next year. I didn't really expect to do this right now, but maybe coming off my season, recovering from my season and having a clear head, means it is the right time.

I went over to my keyboard and started pounding out goals. I accomplished everything I wanted at the sprint distance. I knew what I wanted to do next but no idea how to get there. I need help.

I hammered out a novel and sent it over to Liz. I'm sure I'm not the only athlete to send over rambling emails. I listed where I am; what my long term goals are; what I thought would be good short term goals to get me to the big ones.....and I sent over a tentative race schedule.

We went back and forth for awhile. She advised against doing the 70.3 (given my goals). That's now off my calendar. 

When we finished, I had a clear plan of what next year would look like. We figured out when I would race and what distance. I gave her certain goals and left them with's up to HER to figure out how in the hell to make this all happen. My job is easy. I just have to do the workouts.

Besides all that and when I returned from vacation, I decided to get back onto my nutrition plan. It was totally fun stuffing my face with all the food

But I felt it. I was ready to get back into it. For me, it works really well to let loose: go on vacation or really enjoy holidays, just eat whatever I want for a time. When it's over, I'm incredibly motivated to go back to my normal eating. 

For the past 2 weeks, I've done just that. 

I looked at my nutrition for the past year. I could easily see where I did well and when I struggled. I decided to take the off season to experiment a bit more. I also decided that I would drop a little more fat. I gave myself 3 weeks to find my starting point. In another week, I'll take down my measurements and decide what I want to do. 

One of the things that I'm doing is more of tapering my carbs throughout the day. Instead of just randomly eating throughout the day, I'm putting more thought into it. My breakfast will, now, always have some sort of potato. I've found that this is really giving me a boost throughout the day. In the past, I would just have eggs and veggies for breakfast. Then at lunch, I'd have potato or rice. So far, this new structure seems to be working much better for me. My volume is low enough that I don't have to have those carbs at every meal, but having them at breakfast has been a game changer for the past 2 weeks.

I did the same thing with training. I looked back over where I did well and other times that I didn't do so well. I know that moving to the Olympic distance is going really challenge me with increased in volume and intensity. I feel really good about the strides I made at the sprint. I feel mentally ready to really tackle the oly for the first time ever. 

REALLY GO AFTER IT....not just muddle through it.

What else can I say? The rest of Oct, Nov & Dec are my off season. Then, I get ready for my early season races. 

I have some running races coming up (including my BIRTHDAY 5K) and the Turkey Trot (for family bragging rights).  I'm taking time off from Strava. (My workouts automatically upload as private. Unless I make it a point to change them, you won't see much there).

I will blog. I tend to get more introspective as the off-season goes on. Hey, what else will I do when my time isn't filled up with training?

This weekend is my Birthday 5k. 

Don't worry. We'll return to the CRAZY in January.

Thursday, October 6, 2016

I'm ready. Are you?

Oh, the off season. It's that glorious time.

Since my return, I have been enjoying recovery time....and sadly, working on the FAT FACTOR.

Dessert at every meal will do that to a person. I don't discriminate; that includes breakfast.

The good news is the the jiggle factor was probably at a 10 on Monday. Now, it's down to a nice comfortable, soft place to fall: 7.

Slowly but surely, I have been coming out of my food/race coma and started writing down goals for next year.

For the past years, I have been learning how to race. Every time someone asked me about doing a certain race or distance, I'd respond with, "I'm not ready."

I know that was confusing for so many people, but I didn't know how else to say it. "Ready" wasn't a time or a placing or anything tangible. It was a feeling. I had to learn how to give what the race required.

(OFF TOPIC: Dave, it was "Hold on, Cupcake". To this day, probably, still the BEST race mantra EVER.)

I had to learn to trust myself. That doesn't mean that every race will be perfect. It doesn't mean every race will be a PR.

It means that at every race, I will bring my best effort and attitude. I learned that when I bring those things, my race is a success regardless of my finish time; regardless of where I place.

Now, I'm ready to take that attitude to longer distances.

Early Spring, I will be doing my favorite Oly race.

Then, I may  just managed to convince a friend to do a 70.3 with me.

That's right folks. I'm voluntarily doing another 70.3. (I'll tell you which race, later. We're waiting for some things to fall into place.)

After that, I will be going back to Nationals and will once again be racing the Oly on Saturday and the Sprint on Sunday; because where's the fun in going all out without being ridiculously sore?

We'll see where my head and heart is in Sept/Oct. I tentatively have the NV races on my schedule.

What about Ironman, you ask? For the first time in 8 years, I can see myself doing one. I don't know when. It could be in 2 years. It could be 10, but at least that door is open now.

My goals haven't changed either. I still have those really stupid big goals lingering out on the horizon. This year, I learned something. I can work on multiple goals at once. Triathlon isn't black or white. It's too complex for that.

Reaching for your goals is a complex structure. This is the journey I have been waiting for. I am ready.

Monday, October 3, 2016

What happens in Vegas

Ends up in my blog

Going into this race, I had so many ups and downs that I almost didn't even bother.

If you are a regular reader, you know what the last (almost) 2 months have been like.

This race was supposed to be a mini vacation with Mr. Tea. Because of everything going on, he decided to stay home. It will take him awhile to feel comfortable leaving. The doctor told him no more than 20 minutes of walking. Going to Vegas and/or a race would mean quite a bit more walking than that. 

I drove to the race. I love road trips. Normally, they help me clear my head. Unfortunately, the day I drove through Utah, a cold front moved in. It was 5 hours in the pouring rain. I stopped every hour to take a breather. At every stop, I thought about turning around.

Have you ever been emotionally and physically exhausted? I was battling guilt of leaving....I shouldn't's not fair that I go on vacation and have fun.

Eventually, I got to St George. St George where the weather is completely different than every other city in UT. The sun was out, and it was 95 degrees. I decided to stop to eat for an extended break. I walked around in the sun, and my mood just picked up immediately.

Believe it or not, even when I got to Vegas, I was still doubting that I'd do the race. I was tired from lack of sleep. I had a headache. This race wouldn't mean anything.

The problem was there was a voice in my head that kept can win this race. I had looked up finish times to give me an idea what the course was like. This was a standard sprint. Yet, finish times for the bike and run were considerably slower than a regular sprint. I entered my bike data into BBS. It told me that i could expect about a 38 min bike time. I knew then that the bike was tough. I assumed from the run times (and I checked all age groups) that the heat and hills were going to make this a tough race.

Do I do the race? Do I just take some time off and relax in Vegas?

And I thought about regrets: what people regret the most. They regret *not* doing something. Not *doing something and failing".

For some reason, the race was pulling at me. I wanted to be pushed. The average bike time for this 12.4 mile course was 45 minutes. In my age group, it was 47 minutes. Yet, BBS was telling me I could have a 38 minute bike. 

Would that be possible? Could I actually do that?

I had to do it. Had to. I wanted to prove to myself that I really had something with my bike ability....I wasn't just making up this shit. I'm fucking good on the bike. Let's see how good I can be.

With all that, you might think I'd be nervous....pressure to perform and all that. It was quite the opposite. This was the most unbelievable year I've ever had. I told Liz that I wanted this race to simply be a celebration of the most unexpected year ever.

After a long day of driving, a great dinner and a fun night of Thursday Night Football in the booking room........I decided the race was one.

The next morning, I was in a particularly chipper mood.

I did an easy ride, an easy swim. I pretty much did whatever I wanted. I ate ridiculous amounts of foods that weren't good for me....all weekend long.

I set the alarm for 3:45 Sat. I ordered room service to arrive at 4am and went to bed.


That morning, I had more confidence than I've ever had. No nerves. Nothing. This would be my celebration race.

It really lived up to every possible way.

That morning, I met a woman in the 50-54 ag. I certainly didn't know it at the time. We got along great and hung out all morning. She gave the probably the single most greatest piece of advice EVER. (I later found out she won the 50-54 age group and had been at Nationals this past year. 

As the swim was getting ready to start, I lined up right in front. My goal: Be first. Period. I am capable of doing this. At the last minute, the swim course was changed. My understanding is that Lake Mead often gets some crazy weather and questionable swim currents. Nevada had a cold front coming in, and the winds were expected to get pretty crazy. 

When we started, I immediately pulled to the front. There were 3 women ahead of me but I didn't care. As soon as we made the first turn, we were swimming into the current. This was the longest stretch.

This is where my swim strength comes in.

One by one, the women dropped off. I looked up and saw the previous waves. (They started 10 min before us). I picked up my effort. I wanted to get through the sea if swimmers as fast as possible.

As I came up to the swim finish, I knew I was in first of all women +40. (I was 3rd overall on the swim and 1st in my wave which was all women +40).

The run to transition is a challenge. It's a rocky terrain. I brought the worst flip flops ever. My feet were slipping all over the place. My run was more of a stumble. Still, I was joking with the volunteers and other athletes.

Today was my day. I was enjoying ever step of it....every slip....every stumble. For those are the moments that make up triathlon. 

Now it was time. I had something to prove to myself.

I jumped on the bike. I had it set up in the smallest gears, knowing that we start climbing immediately.

I glanced at my speed (10mph). I glanced at my power 250 watts. Don't worry about your speed. BUT HOLD THOSE WATTS. No one can keep up with you if you do that.

This is a hilly course. Going out was uneventful. It was up and down, up and down.

All week, the news was taking about the Vegas cold front that would bring strong winds. The winds started picking up.

I had a plan for the wind. Go aero. Go as tight as I could and ride as hard as I could. BBS said that I would maintain 18.3 mph on this course. (My actual speed was 19.4mph. I have had a jump in bike fitness, but we have not tested recently because Liz and I are working on other things).

One by one I was passing the men from the previous waves. I didn't see other women, but I knew they were ahead of me.... How many? No idea. I didn't even know if someone in my age group was ahead of me. Although, I was pretty certain I was in first.

I stayed tucked and drove through the headwind. I was going faster and faster. My speed was increasing. My watts were increasing. My legs started burning. 

Then I saw a guy. I decided to catch him. The headwind was beating on us, but I took the lid of my watts and gave it everything I had up the hills. I didn't coast on the downhills. 

I catch the guy. On a huge downhill, were start big deal.... We're only going about 40 mph.

He was the nicest guy. We dismount and start running.

During the run, I hear someone behind me saying, "hold this pace. You got this. You are in first. I'm going to try to stay with you." It was bike guy. He told me his birthday was coming up. I told him MY birthday was coming up. We have the same birthday. He is turning 47 and me 49. I told him as soon as we make it to the top of this 1.55 mile hill, it's time to turn on the speed.

At that point, I lost him. I took off with whatever I could muster on the rocky terrain and steep hill. I almost fell 3 times.

I ran as fast as I could.

It was a risk I had to take. I was not going to be passed in the last half a mile again. It wasn't going to happen.
Then, I caught up to a monster of a guy. I struggled to catch him. He looked like a body builder. I said, "you move awful fast for a big guy". He laughed and said he weighs 250lbs. Ridiculous. He was like a gazelle. I was running 8:15 down the hill, and he was running faster.

It's weird being in the lead. It's weird because you don't see any women. Only one women passed me. She ended up coming in second 30-34..... But my overall time beat hers. The only time I saw other women was after the turnaround. Even then, they were minutes behind....I knew they wouldn't be able to catch me, if they were in my age group.

That didn't matter though. I wasn't going to allow them to catch me.

At this point, it's hot. (Later in my car, my phone weather app said 98 degrees). I had fueled well enough. I made all the adjustments for the heat and wind. (Wind dehydrates a person faster than no wind).

All day, I kept saying "this race will be won by the mentally strongest person."

I didn't let the heat bother me. I grabbed a cup of water at the 2 aid stations. One I drank, one I poured over my head.

When I crossed the finish line, I didn't know what my overall time was. I felt like I could do 1:35. It was tough though. It's hard when you don't know a course or the weather. Still, without being cocky....I thought I could do sub 1:30, without really knowing what the conditions would be like.

I finished the race in 1:29:44.

I had the 3rd fastest swim of all women.

I had the 2nd fastest bike split of the day. First on the bike was a woman in the 35-39 age group.

I was 3rd in my age group on the run.... Officially, the best ranking I've ever had coming off the bike.

I had a 6.5 minute lead over second place and never knew it. Run like you stole something....I gave it what I had for this race.

When I crossed the finish line, I looked for my bike and run guy. I could find him.

I went over to pull results and almost fell over.

I came in first.

For a race that I didn't even know was going to happen.... At a race that came after weeks of taking care of Mike and working every bit of my schedule around his needs..... At race that happened after taking care of EVERYTHING to keep a house and a business running...I broke down. 

I did it. The cards weren't in my favor, but I didn't care. I was going to fight for every bit of that course. When we turned into the current on the swim, I said, "you're a fucking swimmer. Let's do this!"

When the wind picked up and rocked me around on the bike, I thought, "You can fucking do this. Everything you have RIGHT NOW"

On the run, I paced that hill and when I got to the was game on.

Two more things (I know this post is getting long).

1.) Lake Mead, Nevada is an amazing place to race. This whole race was absolutely awesome from the triathletes to the volunteers to the RD (who does a number of races in CO).  I highly recommend any of the races. If you are a flatlander, be warned.....this is not an easy course. If you live in CO, you probably already train on hills. Of course, training has a lot to do with it. Liz had me doing some pretty tough strength building bike workouts. The result was I flew up the hills.

2.) Being away for the weekend and not having to take care of anyone but myself was really awesome. As it turned out my friend Eric was also in Vegas. He did the St George marathon in a smoking 2:38. 

Time alone: I had a lot of time to think about everything.  I looked back over my season,  I have accomplished what I wanted to at the short distance. I'm ready for the next step.

Get ready for something BIG.