Friday, January 10, 2014

Living without regrets

I'm at a point where I can write about this and I need to write about it.

Coach Mike and I broke up in Dec. It was the hardest thing that I've been through in a very long time because he was my best friend. If you have a relationship with your coach that has gone on for years, you know what I'm talking about.

A relationship like that doesn't end without hurt on both sides. Both of us were responsible for that.

That's why I've been blogging, a lot. I don't have that person that I can go to about all my training thoughts or thoughts on business ideas, etc. I have close friends, but I don't want to monopolize the conversation with my inner thoughts of how a run went.

I can live the fact that he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. I understand that he took the professional break up as a personal attack.

I don't live life with regrets. I can handle rejection. I would regret not reaching out to him. Even though, that means he might not respond or he might respond in attack mode.

Life is WAY too short to harbor anger or hurt. So, when we run into each other at a race or accidentally in training, I'll greet him with open arms and open heart.

Hopefully, he'll do the same.


Carolina John said...

A good coach is a friend, confidant, and planning agent. Losing one like that is quite traumatic. Take your time to heal and dump your run thoughts on others; I'm always glad to listen.

Tiffany @ The Chi-Athlete said...

Life is full of tricky situations. I believe that learning how to handle (not just how to prevent) those situations is how we grow and become *better* humans.

Needless to say, I am sorry that you couldn't break off a professional relationship with someone without breaking off a friendship with them. Hopefully things can get worked out. Until then, know that you did your best in the situation, and that you can be at peace about it.

Runner Leana said...

I'm sorry to hear things aren't well between you. Hopefully he'll be able to greet you with open arms too.